Alaska

Leaving: Monday, June 1, 2009
6:00-6:30pm

Returning: Tuesday, June 9, 2009
12midnight

No one.

Picking up feathers and fringe people walk by looking for someone: no is looking for her,
like always she was one of the last to leave,
struggling to carry everything herself she walks silently to her car with flowers and costumes in hand.

There she sits,
the glitter and pretty bobby pins falling out of her hair that is all pinned up,
the make-up streaked down hair face from tears she does not understand,
she asks herself "Why?"
why all the time practicing when no one else knows it so she looks like the fool,
why all the time with hair and make-up when no one comes to watch,
why can the plans never work out,
the tears come down faster and she starts to rip out the bobby pins: wincing every time,
the flowers on the table mean nothing: just some silly traditional thing.

there is no one to talk to,

no one is to be found
no ones around

No one.

Today's date.

=]

The stress has broken me down, I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

Big Brother

Afghanistan...
is probably not as bad is I think.

6-7 months...
will fly by before I notice

then its all done, then he will stay "home"

I miss him. I love him.

In the face

It finally hit me.
and the tears came.
we used to be such great friends, but have not talked in months
something comes up I don't think its true, later I over hear someone talking loud and things start to come together
today I read something
then comes the slap in the face and the question I wish I could ask you
Why?
everything feels like a dream... more like a nightmare
nothings real
no one cares

now all alone in the dark
with an empty feeling
and the tears never end



I hope you are both very happy.
I hope you stick to this never talking or looking at me thing.

Pop Show =]

Thursday, May 14
&
Saturday, May 16

7:30 P.M. ~both nights~

Rada Preforming Arts Center
(W-SR High School Auditorium)

$3 - students
$5 - adults


You should be there.

Goodbye Love

"All your words are nice
But love's not a three-way street
You'll never share real love
Until you love yourself
I should know

I just came to say

Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Came to say goodbye, love
Goodbye

Just came to say
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye

Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love
Goodbye
Just came to say
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye love"



I tried, but you said stop.
I thought it was what you wanted... what I wanted.
I guess I am wrong.
So goodbye love... goodbye friend.

Head over heels

I'm a lover, not a fighter. But I will fight for what I love.
And I love the way you make it all okay, you know that things are not so great now and you see the bad side of us together, but then you smile and tell me things that make it better. and I am so greatful for that... I am so greatful for you. =]

Happiness...

comes and goes, but how can it ever stay...
especially when the thing that makes you the happiest hurts the ones you care about.
And because of that it is hurting the one you care the most about.

Life.

It is finally less stressful and dramatic. I like it.
Yeah things could be better... but right now they are pretty great.