Theme Song

Dear Jordan Leigh Thomas,

Do you remember our theme song?
that we both got from some dumb quiz thing
that we both took such a long time ago
I almost think it was way back in 7th grade


So... since we don't talk much I am going to tell you my story with this blog
others can read it if they want to but please... read it.


Today anything related to Mediacom stopped working in my house
the TV
the internet
the phone

so I went to my room to find something to do
and I turned on my ihome and just started singing and being goofy *I bet thats surprising =P*
after a few songs it started to play and it made me think of everything we had
and then the things we don't anymore
but then I just wished you were with me
to start singing and being dorky
so... I pretended
we were together dancing around and singing with the sun pouring through the window
and we had put on all my crazy clothes and accessories
then I did not feel so alone I was not scared from all the things running through my mind
I was just pretending like little kids do
and that made me happy like actually truly happy for pretty much the rest of the day
also because it reminded me of the night I spent at your house after a show
and how we just talked and talked about anything and everything
that was so long ago, we have not talked in like... I want to say like months but i don't really know


So now this one song that is amazingly happy
makes me happy and sad all at once
happy about the past
sad about the present


I just hope you remembered what it was

Love,
Elizabeth Marie Paladino



P.S.
this is the version I have

You are gone.

I don't know if you can tell...
but I know I can feel it
you have left me here after over 9 years of saying best friends forever
now... I would be surprised to hear you call me your friend

I don't think you meant to
it feels more like you have been stolen then you voluntarily stopped being my friend

But you also...
stopped sharing
stopped smiling
stopped hanging out

and on top of that
you have been captured...
by a clingy
self-centered
always has to be right
control freak
personal bubble invader
never can be alone
copier
demanding
jerk


and I can't believe I trusted so much to someone who takes away
my only friend that I have had since pre-K

but anyways
if you would rather just be their best friend forever
just stop me from trying
cause I hate seeing you be bossed around
and I hate not knowing anything about you


Since you seem so fine with the way things are,
then I am done.


I am gone.


Sincerely,
Elizabeth

Are you still here?

Are you still here, with me?

Do you still care?

Will you ever finally share?

Do you still want me around?
or should I go away...

When will we talk like we use to?
or laugh...




Is any of this suppose to mean something...
like a sign or is it normal

You were my favorite for many many years
or even...
not a whole year

is it me who is changing?
or you?

I don't think we will ever talk about it
it will never change
until the worst things happen

I am worried about you when you will not tell me
anything
not even the tiniest thing

how it takes me 10-20 minutes to think of something to say
and sometimes nothing comes
so I don't say
and I use to tell you anything and everything that came to mind

you don't always find my joking funny anymore
you don't really find anything I do funny anymore

I don't really understand you like i did
and I am guessing you don't understand me too


Are you still here?

or have you left?

P.S. This is about more then 1 person.

One...

one word
one look
one hug
one call
one letter
one second
one try
one chance
one smile
one tear
one friend
one thing shared
one song
one poem
one little help
one sorry
one thank you
one task


one,
can make difference
but sometimes... not for the best


one wrong word
one mean look
one fake hug
one awkward call
one meaningless letter
one second of nothing
one unhelpful try
one bad chance
one fake smile
one hurtful tear
one back stabbing friend
one thing not shared
one sad song
one unhappy poem
one little help done wrong
one useless sorry
one cheesy thank you
one task done in angry



one small thing can make or break a person.
so please,
please
do me one favor...
the one thing you do for me
do it because you want to, not because I asked or told
do it because I mean something to you.

I understand, I can be needy

When I am happy
don't try to bring me down

When I am sad
don't walk away

When I share
don't try to one up me

When I am mad
don't yell at me

When I am scared
don't make things worse

When I am quite
don't get mad at me

When I am tired
don't tell me what I should be

When I am all alone
don't be the one that just watches and walks away


instead...


make me laugh

cheer me up

just listen

let me vent

tell me you love me

try to make me smile

just let me lean on you

walk back to me