Second Chances

I am mean
I am judgmental
I am a jerk
I am a bitch
I am evil
I am hurtful
I am not nice
I am hard on people
I am easily persuaded

I am done, with all of that

I am going to give anyone and everyone I have known forever, just met, or well meet in the future
a second chances

I am going to be nicer
I am going to give people a chance
I am going to see it from their side
I am going to be calm
I am going to be helpful
I am going to be, a better person

but,
I will give just one second chance
I am done trying to make things better
so...
1 time to make me like you
1 time to make me not like you

You choose


Thank You

Left out, much?

1)hey I saw so-and-so at the movies the other day

2)Oh, I already did that with so-and-so

3)hey, we should hang out more


maybe I am crazy or maybe its true
but from my side I keep feeling like I am being
left out
replaced
forgotten

or maybe I am just not that fun to be around
or
to go places with

If that is true then stop saying you want to hang out
stop pretending you want to be with me
and just stop replacing me

If you are leaving me out... don't tell me the next day how much fun you had
cause I will not want to know

Its not that hard to hang out with me since only Monday nights i do anything
so don't try and use that line
and my parents are pretty generous when it come to me wanting to do something
so I will most likely be able to
I have a moped, so in spring, summer, and fall I can do anything in town
so transportation for me is no problem

But... never mind I will just enjoy me uneventful nights till I am 37

Thank You


P.S.
don't leave me some comment about blah blah i am sorry blah we don't leave you out blah
so pretty much... comments are unnecessary

What do I do?

When you need me instead of me needing you?

When you are at your worst and I don't know what to say?

When you have always been there for me and I have no idea how to do the same?

When you are far enough away that I cant make things better?

When you have always seemed to know what to do but I don't?

When you have tried anything and I tried nothing?

When you just need me to say anything but the few things I say make it worse?

When I love you so much it hurts because I can't do anything?

What do I do?

Weekend =D

Friday

I spent the day doing nothing
which was fine by me
then I went to Josh's...
it was really really fun
music, dancing, guitar hero, people

I don't know but it just made me feel great, and like a normal teenager

Saturday

I spent the day sleeping to catch up from Josh's
then I went to Jordan's we talked for a little then Heidi *our ride* showed up
we went to the show which the music and all was good but it was not really that exciting
yes, card towers and stalking people was fun but sometimes it was just... nothing
when it was done we were waiting for Heidi's mom
and found sticks of something or other and were sword fighting me, Heidi, and Jordan a little
but Brianne was being a party pooper and was not
then Brianne was like "Heidi i think that's your mom"
so we through the sticks and acted "natural"
we got in the car and Heidi's mom was like
"I saw people with sticks how did i know it was Heidi"
it was pretty funny
I spent the night with Jordan, just Me & Jordan
I am pretty sure that was the best thing that I have ever done in a long time
we spent the night just... talking
for hours
about whatever came to mind, whatever we have not told each other
just... talking about anything
and I liked it =D
we talked till like between 1 or 2 am
and then just fell asleep on her bed
and woke up at like... 10am
we talked for like... another hour or so
and then her dad brought doughnuts *yum*
we played with bonnie, she is cute
then me mom got me and we toke Jordan to history day
I spent the rest of the day sleeping


I am pretty sure that being with so many people
and just talking about nothing and being goofy
makes you know who really is there for you
who understands what you mean when you don't
who wants to just be with you


I wish I had more weekends like this:
cute puppies
Jordan
talking
listening
stalking
laughing
telling the truth
letting it out
being a teenager
card houses
late nights
being together
dancing
singing
nerd fights
remembering Jr. high
thinking of summer
being outside


Sometimes I wish I would try harder for all of that
for all the stuff that makes me happy for more then a second
even more then a day
and sometimes I wish I would not always blame people so much for not trying their self


And I would like to say Thank You
to the few people that made me weekend amazing
and the ones that were at least around
because this weekend was probably one of the best ones I have had in a long long time

Thank You =D

Hiccups

Today after school
I went to sam n's house *YAY*
and I got some hiccups
for almost an 1/2 HOUR!!!

A never ending cycle of
me hiccuping
then laughing
then hiccuping because I was laughing
Sam laughing at me
me making weird noise when hiccuping
me laughing more
which caused more hiccups

CRAZINESS!

then later when I started eating dinner
THEY CAME BACK
but this time I did not find them funny
and my mom made them go away *YAY*

and she also said I could
1) go to josh's party
2)maybe rent juno and have Nicole over
3)go to show on Saturday ANDANDAND stay with Jordan

but sadly still no on the whole Friday plan

oh wells she is making me cake =P

Love,
Elizabeth

P.S.
I am not turning emo

When you look me in the eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

~*Jonas Brothers




This song makes me happy;
and makes me think of you <3

falling... in love?

Why do we use the word falling when we are in love?

Wouldn't that mean that it hurts or that it was not meant to happen.

When you think falling don't you think of tripping and getting hurt,
or when you drop something
you don't want that

When you think falling don't you think of its not meant to happen,
or that it was an accident
you don't want that

When you think falling don't you think of pain or being hurt,
or that it scared you
you don't want that

When you think falling don't you think of love as the last thing,
or that amazing feel that you get
you don't think that



Why do we even use that word love so easily?

Wouldn't that make it less meaningful when you really mean it

When you think love don't you think of friends,
so its really more a friendship
not really love

When you think love don't you think of inanimate objects,
so its really anything
not really love

When you think love don't you think of that cute fake celebrity couple,
so its not true
not really love

When you think love don't you think of little pink hearts
so its something that the media has come up with to sell and get money
not really love



Why do people have a problem with other people being in love with someone?

Wouldn't it be bad if they said the same things to you

When you think "I love that person" and someone says
how can you
why do they have anything to do with it

When you think "I love that person" and someone says
who would ever love someone like that
why do they get to judge people

When you think "I love that person" and someone says
why would they love you
why do they have the right to be so mean

When you think "I love that person" and someone says
you are to young to love someone
why do they get to be the boss of your heart



So from now on I am never saying:
falling in love
or even...
I love you to random people/ things
cause i dont really love them
they just mean a lot to me

from now on I will only tell 2 people I love them
1) my family (yea its more then one person but whatever)
2) Nathan (Yes, I really do love him.)

Book report

so...
this is a happy post...
kind of =P
its me slacking off in English class not working on my book report
distracting Brianne from hers and making sure the substitute teacher does not walk by
haha she just walked by =D
and I was "researching" when she did so its all ok
well...
I should really do some work since I have little to nothing done
yippee research
if you read this during school you should tell me
cause that would make me happier then I am... if that is possible
because I am really happy/hyper *YAY*

and Jordan if you read this... Rarw && tin foil =P

oks... now off to work

I lied

I lied
I lied
I lied
I lied
I lied
I lied
I lied

I lied to you when I said I was ok
I lied to you when I said I was not sad
I lied to you when I said nothings wrong
I lied to you when I held your hand
I lied to you when I hugged you
I lied to you when I acted sad to leave you
I lied to you, and I cried for the first time in weeks

worst of all
I lied to myself, my heart

and for that I am sorry
well... I don't think I really am, but what else is there to say

Up... and Down

Life is full of ups and downs
but to have so many in one day...
even in a small amount of time makes things weird

for starters
my after school plans had to change
that made me pretty bummed, especially cause you almost left without saying bye

so instead I went to Ander's with some friends we played rockband that was fun
and full of craziness and i laughed so hard my eyes watered a little

then I went back to school with Bri, since she was reason I was still around... and ride home
we said hi to the play people, kind of
she wanted to find her boyfriend but I really did not want to find mine,
because i was upset for some reason
after awhile they were done with practice and we were in the hallway near locker rooms so they saw us
they changed and what not and then came back
some part of was going to be upset, but then it was like I could not be
I just looked in his eyes and did not understand why I was upset and then was happy

Then I went home and after some time decided to try on the dress I was going to wear
for ushering... sadly its to small a.k.a. I am fat but w/e
so that made me kind of sad but then i just decided to wear winterfest dress so its all good

the best party which made everything all better
is that I get to see Jordan Thomas tomorrow
not just see her, she is sleeping at my house so with me pretty much entire time in Waverly =D
and now I cant stop being happy

just thought like sharing my day with you,
thanks for reading and maybe caring


Love,
Elizabeth