Thank you 2009

You have turned out to be one of the best years ever =]

Angsty day...

and my back/shoulders hurt.

ugh.

Christmas time

is just not as fun when you grow up.

1 cool present you have to share with too many grumpy people
a winter coat counts as a present from Santa
a beanie baby dog is the puppy you get
being alone never sucked so much
very few cookies are baked
digging out your car alone is a afternoon activity
stress fills the house
sleeping in the living room means nothing to the volume of everyone else
tears fill your eyes



I'm ready for school.

I miss you.

Also

on the fifth day of Christmas my boyfriend gave to me... a black eye =P

fourfive

HersheyKisses
and
saxophonemusicandfingerchart

3

on the third day of Christmas my boyfriend couldn't get to me...

but he tried really hard =]


AND...
at 6:15 my doorbell rang,
I open the door to find him standing there.


~*Christmas pencils*~

2nd day

magnet letters =]

On the 1st day of Christmas...

my boyfriend gave to me:

A video game I let him borrow in the summer.

11 days to come =]

I thought to little
and spoke to soon.

I miss you
and you hate me.

I want to talk and laugh again
and you want to never hear my voice.

I thought you were happy again
but you still think about it.



For Christmas I don't want lots of stuff I never really do, what I really want
is your friendship...

Death Cab for Cutie has a Christmas CD =]

NCYC

National Catholic Youth Conference
Kansas City
Sprint Center
bus rides
concerts
lines
singing
trading
free stuff
silly hats
hotel rooms
totally nude
st Mary's (aka big booty)
lean on me
Dewy (the bus driver)
dancing
clapping
fetus
temporary tattoos
bracelets
signs
umbrellas
walking down the street
20,000 plus people
seeing Sigrid and Tara
little sleep
lots of junk food
Party in the USA
jokes
funny speakers
accents
getting lost
cute boys
Latin
corn guy
Oreos
reign forest
t-shirts
pop tarts
lights
goofy rules
music
new friends
pictures
memories
high fives
free hugs
sexy beach abs
locking people out of the room
Spanish
movies
welcome home party

Yesterday

6months =]

Picture.

My profile pictures are very wrong now... =]

I love him...

and all the

silly
goofy
kind
funny
loving
weird
sweet
ridiculous
adorable
caring
thoughtful
considerate
charming
affectionate
strange
cute
unexpected

things he does=]

Phil Collins

What a beast.


P.S. that is my musical characters last name ;]

For the first time

HER
This affection I feel is hard to understand
it's not the way I planned
my world is changing
wherever I turn
it's his face I see
looking back at me
and in my eyes I can't disguise
the affection I feel
is getting the better of me

Oh for the first time it's not a dream
oh for the first time it seems so real
that I want to remember
every moment
that I'm there beside him
when he gently takes my hand

So here I am
feeling things I've never felt
and all because of him
my world is changing

HIM
She's turned my whole world upside down

HER
Everything that I do
I do to catch his eye
well and I won't deny
I stand here guilty

HIM
I wonder if she feels the same

TOGETHER
is this affection as I feel
has gotten the better of me

So for the first time
can this be love?
oh for the first time
I know it's real

HER
And with him I feel

TOGETHER
So completely
uniquely like no other
as he gently holds me close

HER
But wait a minute
what am I saying?

HIM
Ne'er thought no

HER
I never thought
on a scale so grand

HIM
To be feeling

HER
Are these emotions
racing through me
tell me I must
tell me I can

HIM
I never felt these things

TOGETHER
I'm finding who I am
cause for the first time

HER
I have no doubt

HIM
These things she does

TOGETHER
But for the first time
I understand, try to understand
yes for the first time
I realize
that all the things they strange/separate happened
well they're happening to me

HER
Every time I'm with that man

HIM
Every time I'm with her

HER
Every time I'm with

HIM
Could I be

TOGETHER
That man

Do people know...

when they are being fake?

when they are being hurtful?

when they are using someone?

when they do something nice?

when they change a life?

when they lose a friend?

when some else is crying over them?

that everyday is a new day?

that things change?

when someone loves them?

what they are truly good at?

when they are just doing what everyone else is doing?

smiles are contagious?

when a joke has gone to far?

that accidents happen?

they have messed up sometime also?

what they do to themselves?

that anything and everything they do influences people younger then them?

that a hug can make everything better?

surprises are fun even if they say they hate them?

what stars look like from out of town?

the meaning of family?

what a blog is anymore?

me?

I can count to 5 =]

*phone rings*

ME : "I got it, I got it"

*trips on the stairs from running to fast"

at same time
DAD: "its probably Joe"

ME: *picks up phone really excited*
"Hello? =]"

PERSON: "Is Phil or Julie there?"

ME: "Oh, Yeah hold on"

Sometimes when I am waiting for you to call I get over excited whenever the phone rings =]

My Song

I am writing you a song like I said...
but I don't have much free time
so it might take awhile
and when I start singing it at school to think about what next, I stop right away
to make sure no one else hears it first... and to make sure you don't hear it yet

=]

P.S. It is going to suck.

Constitution & Amendments

In American Government class we have a quiz tomorrow over both... this is how I am studying the Preamble =]

All-state whatever that I had to do today

SUCKED.

I cried.

Pink.

Happens today. =]

~*From Ben*~

1.) I am out of the Hospital

2.) I have ten shrapnel wounds in my body. 2 in my left arm, 5 in my left leg, and 3 in my right leg. They are all healing well and have been stiched or stapled closed. I have had no infections or blood clots because of them.

3.) The pain from these wound is greater then moderate, but less the severe. Thankfully, prescriptions keep me in check, although I am occasionally in a bad mood because of them.

4.) I have nerve damage behind my left knee, which results in loss of feeling and mobility in my left foot. it is getting better daily, but I can not walk without crunches. Compounding this problem, my left Achilles tendon is partially torn.

5.) I was blown up on August 19th at 0630 and released from the hospital on September 3rd at 1200.

6.) Katie is the greatest girlfriend ever, she takes care of me well and puts up with my shit. I owe her alot.

7.) Matthew has been taking care of me in the brotherly fashion. Dont worry, those of you who he represents would be very proud. I owe you all alot.

8.)To everyone else, thank you for your love and support. You make me very happy. It means alot.
I will see as many of you as possible when I take leave from September 15 - October 15. Till then.....

Vulnerable

no.
seconds on the phone.
minutes to wait.

so.
20 minutes to walk.
40 minutes to wait.
1 hour to cry.
5 minutes of caring.
1 long night.

Saturday

Is going to be the best day ever. =]

Epic Win!

I folded my note super cool.

now I can call it a love note

because its in the shape of a heart


YAY for not doing homework and Google ing origami

Happy August 28th =]

He called this morning

... I was sleeping.

He has to come back to the US.
The surgery for his left leg needs to be here because its the worst.
San Diego or Baltimore.
He is asking for San Diego because that is were his girlfriend and best friend are.
In the end it should all turn out fine.


Thanks to the people who have been there for me, it means a lot =]

I'm scared

Ben got hurt in Afghanistan.

something about a road side bomb.
they said it was really bad.
he had shrapnel aka metal pieces in both his legs and his left arm.
they said he already had some surgery.
he might be moved some where else over there... or he might have to come back to the US
my mom tried to tell me that the surgery meant it was not that bad since he is still where ever they are in Afghanistan.
if he comes back to the US 3 immediate family members can (I think they said paid for) go see him.

I have never seen my mom try not to cry.
I have never seen my mom cry.
I have never cried for so long.
until now

Daddy's come home early from his business trip.
Mommy's friends from church came over.

I'm scared. really, truly scared.


Christmas 2008 my mom & brother

Good bye

Dear Summer,

You have been great.
For the first time I am not ready to leave you.
We spent so many days actually doing something fun.
It was great to be around old friends and to make new friends.
I think you are going to be the one I will remember, the one I will miss

Love,
Elizabeth Marie Paladino

I need a hug... and to much ice cream.

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
I have.

Sometimes I wonder...

Why me?
And then I see why.

I honestly believe everything he says to me,
and no matter what dumb, stupid, or selfish thing I do he is still there...
letting me know how much he loves me =]

for ever
pillow fight
creeper parent moment
fake pout
pushing/pulling off furniture
annoying siblings
tripping
scaring

there is
songs on the piano
laughs
singing
movies
awkward things said
hugs
car rides
water fights
basketball "games"
love


I have no idea how many time I have said it, but I don't know what would make me stop saying it.

I love him.

By far,

this has been one of the best summers ever.

Letters from Afghanistan

They are...
few,
short,
simple,
don't say much,
sometimes illegible,
received a long time after written,

the best things ever.

I miss him. I love him.

Thrice

I love him. =]

strange night

Twilight + Harry Potter = weirdest dream

Edward Cullen & Harry Potter both were trying to win my love

=]

Formal Night

WCP (Waterloo Community Playhouse) has this traditional thing, called Formal Night.
all the cast and crew go out to eat and have an award show, they are allowed one guest.
oh yeah, its very fancy like prom dresses and some guys wear tuxes

For High School Musical, the place was Tony's in Waterloo and everyone looked amazing.
Apart from the standard awards they have funny ones so then everyone gets something, they called them "Stardazzle Awards" (yes like from high school musical 2)

They night was full of laughing, pictures, and plastered on smiles.

Sounds great I know... but once I got there I wish I would have got a friend to come with me (which I thought would be a bad idea), I didn't really talk to anyone much and I never used my camera. It was still kind of fun,
but I would have rather been in Waverly, watching Paige beat up Joe and laughing so hard I cry =]


My Stardazzle Award: Most Likely to Finish 30 Books during the Run
**any free time I have during musical in the green room I am reading, I am on book number 5

I did like all the comments and shocked looks I got from people about how good I looked =]
**purple winterfest dress, black high heels, pretty make-up, and my mom did my hair

Oh wow...

things could not get better.
you make my heart smile =]

Silence

doesn't bug me, except when I know why its so silent... and when I care.

I can't stop smiling =]

<3

Your smile... makes my heart skip a beat, and the look in your eyes lets me know everything is alright.

You mean the world to me, and can make any day better =]

Cell Phones

Are dumb. I don't want one.
If no one cares to tell me what is going on because they cant text me or call me...
then I don't think much would change if they could

I am only on the computer so much because its the only way I find anything out, which in the end is not much

it is really annoying to be the one not knowing anything... or being asked why were you not there / why don't you know about that, and my only answer is because no one told me.

ughblahrantgrblah

Dear Silly boy,

I hope you are having a good summer...

and I just want you to know I messed up, but you will not talk to me anymore so there is not much I can really do

Love, Screwed up girl
P.S. I miss you

Take Me With You

Please forgive me if I seem forward
But I've never been in front of anything like you
Its the last place I ever thought I'd be
When I woke up this morning
Is it true?
And that you're always this breathtaking
And your smart and you're willing
My God this is killing me

Tell me all the things you never said
We can lie here and talk for hours in my bed

I don't have anything to hide
I don't have anything
Everything is not for certain
I don't have anything to hide
I don't have anything
Everything is not for certain

You started to see right through me
And I'm loving every minute of it
Its like I'm born again
Every time I breath in so,
If you're curious,
My favorite color's blue
And I like to sing in the shower
If you like, I'll sing to you

Tell me all the things you never said
We can lie here and talk for hours in my bed

I don't have anything to hide
I don't have anything
Everything is not for certain
I don't have anything to hide
I don't have anything
Every thing is not for certain

Tell me all of your hopes,
All of your dreams
I want you to take me there (take me there)
Tell me all of your hopes,
all of your dreams
I want to take you there (take you there)
Tell me everything
Every breath, I want you to know I'll be there
Theres just one more thing,
One request
I want you to take me with you

Take me with you
I will never let you down
I will love you now and forever

I'm scared.

That I might mess things up.
That all this fighting well just get worse, and never better.

I'm scared because everything comes back to me,
and I don't know what to do.

Sometimes

Sometimes I say things I don't mean,
and other times I don't say things I should

Sometimes I do bad things,
and never apologize

Sometimes I like to get stuff,
and never tell them what I think

Sometimes I never tell the people I care about how much I care,
and then things get bad

Sometimes I joke to much,
and then feel really bad but never tell anyone

Sometimes I'm a jerkface,
and don't realize till later

Sometimes I like to celebrate silly things,
and things like high school relationship anniversaries

Sometimes I love how you say things that I didn't know,
and they are things I always wondered

Sometimes I get really scared,
and just hide from everything

Sometimes I get nervous about other people around,
and then you hold my hand really tight

Sometimes I talk about myself a lot,
and feel really bad... which causes me to pay attention to every thing I say and that can end bad

Sometimes I wonder if anyone actually reads entire blog posts,
and if they ever understand what people really meant

Sometimes I want to do something,
and then chicken out... afraid of embarrassing myself

Sometimes I write blogs that don't make sense,
and then don't know how to end them

Summer

You are going down. =]

Alaska

Leaving: Monday, June 1, 2009
6:00-6:30pm

Returning: Tuesday, June 9, 2009
12midnight

No one.

Picking up feathers and fringe people walk by looking for someone: no is looking for her,
like always she was one of the last to leave,
struggling to carry everything herself she walks silently to her car with flowers and costumes in hand.

There she sits,
the glitter and pretty bobby pins falling out of her hair that is all pinned up,
the make-up streaked down hair face from tears she does not understand,
she asks herself "Why?"
why all the time practicing when no one else knows it so she looks like the fool,
why all the time with hair and make-up when no one comes to watch,
why can the plans never work out,
the tears come down faster and she starts to rip out the bobby pins: wincing every time,
the flowers on the table mean nothing: just some silly traditional thing.

there is no one to talk to,

no one is to be found
no ones around

No one.

Today's date.

=]

The stress has broken me down, I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

Big Brother

Afghanistan...
is probably not as bad is I think.

6-7 months...
will fly by before I notice

then its all done, then he will stay "home"

I miss him. I love him.

In the face

It finally hit me.
and the tears came.
we used to be such great friends, but have not talked in months
something comes up I don't think its true, later I over hear someone talking loud and things start to come together
today I read something
then comes the slap in the face and the question I wish I could ask you
Why?
everything feels like a dream... more like a nightmare
nothings real
no one cares

now all alone in the dark
with an empty feeling
and the tears never end



I hope you are both very happy.
I hope you stick to this never talking or looking at me thing.

Pop Show =]

Thursday, May 14
&
Saturday, May 16

7:30 P.M. ~both nights~

Rada Preforming Arts Center
(W-SR High School Auditorium)

$3 - students
$5 - adults


You should be there.

Goodbye Love

"All your words are nice
But love's not a three-way street
You'll never share real love
Until you love yourself
I should know

I just came to say

Goodbye, love
Goodbye, love
Came to say goodbye, love
Goodbye

Just came to say
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye

Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Came to say goodbye, love
Goodbye
Just came to say
Goodbye love
Goodbye love
Goodbye love"



I tried, but you said stop.
I thought it was what you wanted... what I wanted.
I guess I am wrong.
So goodbye love... goodbye friend.

Head over heels

I'm a lover, not a fighter. But I will fight for what I love.
And I love the way you make it all okay, you know that things are not so great now and you see the bad side of us together, but then you smile and tell me things that make it better. and I am so greatful for that... I am so greatful for you. =]

Happiness...

comes and goes, but how can it ever stay...
especially when the thing that makes you the happiest hurts the ones you care about.
And because of that it is hurting the one you care the most about.

Life.

It is finally less stressful and dramatic. I like it.
Yeah things could be better... but right now they are pretty great.

<3

I am sorry if this is going to hurt people... but in a way I am not.
I like being this happy. =]

Hey you.

I think back on it and start to smile.
my heart skips a beat and I really wonder.
So what's next?
because its all I think about =]
You are all I think about.

Talent Show

It went really well.
I had lots of fun, even with being scared.
my parents came =]

in the end it was just a really really good night.

Someday...

I hope to be great.

Growing up over time

I just had my birthday and the day/night before I had butterflies in my stomach because I was scared to turn 16. Most my friends already are and have been driving and doing all the 16 year old stuff so I don't know what was making me nervous. I thought about it more and I decided I was afraid of some unreal drastic change in who I am. I woke up and nothing felt different at all. At school some random people said happy birthday and in 2 classes they sang but not much more attention then that. I came home and my mom went a little crazy with the whole "sweet 16" but that just made me smile a whole lot because she normally does not do that stuff. I had a small party and no crazy gifts really... and acted like a little kid and played at the park and pretended with my friends, we were Harry Potter characters and I was Cedric Diggory, I laughed so much my abs hurt and smiled so much my face hurt. I had the most fun I have had in a long time, and I realized that you really don't change from one night to the next it all happens over time.

I know look at pictures and finally I see myself as being sixteen, I see all my friends as being older.
I always thought that something was weird with my class or something because they never seemed like the kids older then us or even younger but that is just because it was how I looked at it all, now I see. You don't need all the make-up and clothes that they shoe in the movies and the actors are usually older then the characters they are playing, so it just gives you false ideas.

I believe that I am sixteen and that I am living a great life.

I'm 16 =]

3 Days...

by then so many things will have happened I will probably not even be thinking about being 16

pop show
homework
talent show
church work
dance
flags
boys
car
sleeping
breathing
stress
blah

the weekend could never feel so far away.

Dear people who wrote on my chalkboard,

I never erased the "Happy 16th B-day Liz in 6 days"
off my chalkboard after all the fun.

Today when I got home from church it said 5 days...
I think my dad changed it, since it does not look anything like how my mom writes

that made my day

Love, Elizabeth

The reasons

I am a bitch to you and you put up with it all
all I am doing is hurting you and I feel horrible about it
I don't know what I want
I never think straight
I wanted to tell you all of this to your face
I tried to think of ways to make it all better
but I over thought, tried to hard, just made things worse.

I am sorry.



I love you, but I know its to late.

Don't waste your time

It's over, it's over, it's over:

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You're callin'
You're talkin'
You're tryin'
Tryin' to get in
But it's over, it's over, it's over
Friend

Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over
You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over, it's over my friend
Don't waste my time

Phase?

She told me its just a phase as the tears ran down my face.
Things like this happen when you are in High School.
I don't think she realized that I was silently crying as we drove home.
"Do you want to get an ice cream cone?"
I told her I was fine, but she passed the turn towards our house
She really bought me a chocolate blizzard thing that was new
When she asked a few questions I could barely answer through the tears
I was scared she would yell at me like when I was little for crying
but she said nothing about it
When we got home I could tell she was trying to make me not think about it
There was no "bedtime" and some other things she said I could think about if I wanted to change my mind
As I went to bed, I realized I never tell her anything... but who else is there to tell
Unless I wanted curiosity and not help
or fake sympathy that last 2 days

I have a feeling this phase is not going to pass soon... or ever.

Miracle

Boy meets girl
You were my dream, my world
But i was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me

Miracle... Miracle

Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle...
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me

Miracle... Miracle

Miracle... Miracle



~* Cascada *~

New Moon

You're my Jacob, so where is my Edward?

To Her:

The truly painful goodbyes
are the ones that are never said,
and never explained.



Love, the girl who once was your best friend
P.S. I miss you.
P.P.S I love you.

A Place in this World.

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
cause I'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
trying to see through the rain coming down
even though I'm not the only one
who feels the way I do.

I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
could you tell me what more do I need
and tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
but that's ok

I'm alone, On my own, and im starting off
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
but I'm ready to fly..

I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
OH I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Oh I'm just a girl,
Oh I’m just a girl,
Oh I’m just a girl


~* Taylor Swift *~

I missed my chance

You don't really care, not the way you used to... not the way I wish you still did.

Ugh.

I don't think you read my blog... or know I have one, oh well

Dear You,

Please help me out and tell me what is going on because I don't understand you especially because people say stuff and I think stuff and then you probably are thinking something completely different. but I want to know what you think because things just keep becoming more confusing. but in a way I like how things are so... you should tell me whatever the heck you are thinking about.
kthxbi.

Love, Elizabeth Marie Paladino

Neopets

I was cleaning out my e-mail... which I do rarely and found an old e-mail from neopets, it had my user name and password in it. I decided to start playing with it again =)
so yes, I play on neopets like when I was 8.

Today I found out...

I am to scared to take a risk

very afraid of regret

people think there are things worth ruining other friendships

is that what people really think of me?

assumptions aren't nice, they just make an ass out of u and mptions

secretly I loooove snow

I am a jerk

do laundry other wise you have to wear Christmas socks in February

ever since I was little my parents knew I would grow up to be independent

brothers never forget things... especially when you are 10 and light a towel on fire making Ramen

teenage drama is so fake

I don't learn much from my mistakes

my favorite color should be green because jealousy is always there

I like hugs from random people more then from my friends

the sun is my favorite light

procrastination times 10 trillion

I love picnik

sharing my deep insides does not happen now... I just sit quietly

boys know more then my friends I have known forever

being given random things brighten my day

what is sleep?

holding hands is one of my favorite things

I have lots of shoes but I would rather go around barefoot... not in the cold though

sweatshirts are amazing

my hair is my security blanket

I need to be 16 faster

most the music on my ipod is "old" and I don't really like listening to it anymore

I don't remember learning how to play piano, but I remember going to lessons for like 7 years

reading music that is in treble clef is as simple as reading words that are in English for me

when I play the piano, I calm down... well at least when I am alone

my brother is right I say like to much

waking up to the sun raise is the best

I don't really know what love is

because I keep to myself, people keep to themselves well... they keep away from me

Seriously

Dear Boys,

Please learn how to not be so oblivious to everything.
Thank You.

Love, Elizabeth

Freakin' Out

I over react
I do things to make other things happen, even though they rarely happen
I think I make a good decision and then find out it is horribly wrong
I make more mistakes then the average person
drama should be my middle name
I hurt people
I keep to myself
Valentine's Day makes me sad
I put everything in lists
I think to much about what I am going to do
I plan it all out, but it never happens that way
I know its bad when music can't make me feel better
I hate regretting things
I ruin everything
I am a jerk and have lost friends
I have no where to run
I don't talk to my parents, I just stay in my room
I never have time to talk to the one person that knows everything and tells me what I need to hear


I am a freak and horribly mean. I keep it all in and then when I finally burst I hurt people.

So when you are ready to talk, I have a whole story built up for sometime.

I don't know what to do anymore...

My life is in pieces, and I can't seem to put it back together.

Goodbye

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe we're the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong


~*Secondhand Serenade*~

Secrets from not so deep down

there are glow in the dark butterflies in my room

ihomes are great night lights

wishing for a grand piano

cold smells good

pandora.com

2months 15days

what would we do without music

my dance class is too easy for me

photograph is beautiful

getting mail is exciting

telephones are scary

all puppies are cute, dogs too

hairbrushes are great microphones

mirrors are amazing audience members

playgrounds should not have age limits

cold showers are lame

who wants to be a stereotype

nail polish can make a person feel pretty

why match? people talk about you more if you don't

where did The Nerd Posse go?

soda is not meant to come out your nose

dinner with the family around the kitchen every day at 6pm is my favorite time

board games with my family make me cry, from laughing so hard

growing up and growing old are two different things

whats the point of a big house if it feels empty all the time

freerice.com

love is overrated

if possible most of my wardrobe would be dresses that would be worn to school

sunshine is better then light bulbs

percussion can be beautiful

siblings are great

bruises, cuts, and scraps are signs of being courageous

life is livable without cell phones, even if they try and tell you otherwise

doing your own laundry for 3ish years makes your parents proud

blankets can being curtains

swearing is pointless

cartoons are not just for kids

I miss you. End of story.

and I promise

To always be there for you and help if thats what you need.
To be a shoulder to cry on.
To do funny things so you will keep laughing =D
To do what I can
To just listen.
To sing silly songs.
To just talk.
To give you some space.
I will do anything to brighten your day.

<3

To be your best friend, because sometimes when life gets you down you need some help getting back up.

I'm scared.

Because I don't understand any of it, and I don't want to mess up.

=D

yeah, it finally happened.

small piece of paper...

There is this very small piece of paper that has been taped up right next to the computer screen so I see it everyday, many times a day. It has been there for a very long time now. I don't know why it is there. I never thought much about it till I actually read it.

The piece of paper is still taped there. I still do not know why, but I have read it many times now... so here it is.


Jeremiah 29:11. For I
know well he plans I have
in mind for you, says the
LORD, plans for your
welfare, not for woe! plans
to give you a future full of
hope.