I love my set crew pants <3

they may be a little to small
have a huge hole
and covered in every color

but they mean so much to me, and that is all that matters =]

I hate trying to pick "the right" college... uuugh

I love dance

today is my last first day of dance class... its my last year =\
I dont get to go today because my mom is making me going to the academic awards...
but Im gonna rock it out this year, and go out with a bang... its my 13th year =]

Dance is my life <3

I feel ready for college...

but I have no idea where to go and no idea what to do.
I have applyed to 1 college,
I have taken 0 senior pictures...

I know society tells me not to fall in love when Im young, well screw them
but Im scared to leave you here and go off on the big college adventure...

Im ready, but I hope its as easy and comfortable as they make it seem... besides the homework =P

I love my mom...

she is the best =]

I'm 17...

and I cry way to much...

because the boy I love hurts me
because I have no friends
because I have never gotten a call back
because no one tells me Im good at anything
because I eat lunch with people but feel completely alone
because I spend almost every night now home alone, bored
because Im always stressed about school and school related things
because people make fun of me
because people get mad at me for no reason
because I know nothing
because my mom asks me if people like my new outfits... and no one said anything all day
because people make stupid comments about me and the boy I love
because I only get yelled at when Im home... or they just dont talk to me
because people only talk to me after I write a sad blog post
because I have danced since I was 5... and only my family comes to watch (and Joe last year)
because people lie to me
because only one person every hugs me
because I try so hard at singing... but nothing ever happens
because I am pressured about college
because Im not skinny
because I will be gone all of christmas break... and it will probably a little stressful
because my dad throws a fit about coming to watch me do anything
because Im scared