What I would say to you

so..... i am doing the thingamajig about what i would say to you
here it goes
p.s. it might suck

I sometimes fell like you are gone and you are not. we seem to be slipping away from each other. and i hope that there is a way to stop it and fix it but... i don't know. what i do know is i don't want to lose you ever have have none you the longest and i would hate to not know you.

wow. we can be pretty crazy. i feel at home when i am with you and that we are just like sisters or something. i hate it when i see you sad and i will always try to make you feel better. i love being with you and you always make me act silly. i hope it never changes.

you can be very silly which is why i like you so much because then i cant act weird around you. i have known you the shortest but i can trust you with everything and i have. you have the power to destroy my entire life but i trust that you never will. you always make me feel better and make me laugh... a lot.

you are gone.
that is a fact in more then one way. you literally are in a different town now but also i feel you are gone as a friend. we don't talk much, rarely see each other, never really hang out anymore, and that is why you feel so far away, more then you really are. i would hate to see you go forever but i think it just might happen no matter what we do. it seems that we keep saying we will try harder to stop it from happen but i don't think that will ever really happen. and for that... I am sorry.
you were my greatest friend now i feel so alone and meek. I love you.

we do a lot together. we laugh, talk, and share some secrets. we sometimes don't agree but always get along. i am glad we are friends. you can come up with some funny things and always can make me laugh... but then again who cant :-P. knowing is pretty cool and i am glad i do.

sometimes i wish i could really tell you what i think, but that would be a very hard thing to do. you will never know what really goes on in my head and sometimes i think you want to and other times i don't know. i feel like you are giving me mixed signals.... and that sounds weird but that is how i feel about you and our friendship. sometimes i never really understand you and sometimes i wish i did and other times i wish you were not such a big thing in my life but everything i try, never works i just get more confused

telling you how i felt was the best thing i did this school year. you make my day so much better and you don't even realize it. you always know how to make me smile. i fell that i can trust you with everything and that you will never lie to me. i think you are amazing and i don't know what else to say
I love you.

I wonder what really happened to our friendship. I would if it was us just following everyone else or if there really was a reason. i guess i don't like how you act sometimes but i want to know what really happened between us because we were like best friends when we were little now i never really know what to think

it does not feel like we meet when i was in 7th grade. i feel i have known you forever for how much trust i have in you and how much you tell me. i think you are great and i am so glad that we meet that one day after school on the steps you have helped me meet so many people and for that a love but even with out that i love you because you are always so nice and kind and i can tell you anything knowing you will never tell.

I cant really think how we became friends it was mostly just this year i have always known who you were but now we are actually friends. i am glad we are because you always make me laugh. i love when i get to hang out with you and now that i have been thinking i think it is orchestra that made as friends doing that project at the beginning of the year is what i think made it all happen. who would have thought great friends could have come from that

we once were really good friends but high school hit you hard. sometimes i feel you try to act like what you think high schoolers are suppose to be or you or you think you are a prep. but then sometimes you act like when we were younger and would tell jokes and laugh and tell each other everything now sometimes i am afraid to tell you because i hear you talk about others in bad ways which is not you so i think you should stop trying to pretend to be something else. and just be yourself